Sometimes I don't know how my life is, it could be distraught and pleasing at the same time. But mostly I would say distraught will always be the prominent one. So many things need to be settled down. Internship thingy makes thing becomes more complicated. Tests, assignments and projects are like usual, never get less. It will always increasing and if only it can be measured, KLCC would not be the tallest one in Malaysia, my works would preceding. Yes, how hyperbola it is.
As I'm growing up, I could sense something in me is getting fade. It is a passion and tendecy to do things. If before I would enjoy studying like bonkers but now for me, it is a grind. I lost my passion and I know I have to get it back before it's too late. The MIS first test last time was a terrifying moment, I can not be very sure to answer every single question. Every questions look awkward. Yeahh, I admit that I had put only some effort into it because the week before mid-semester was busy like crowded cars on a road in a crowded city with crowded people. Huhh
Sometimes, I got a thought like, 'When I'm graduating and find myself a job, it would be the greatest moment ever'. I want to finish my study as quick as possible but I know later on when I work, I might have different thought like, 'Bosannya kerja, I wish I can go back to my student's life'. Everyhting seem to be not in the way we want it to be. The only concern is how we enjoy our very moments and how to decorate it well to be more pleasing.
We will never be contented of life. Once we at school, we would want to finish schooling as soon as possible. But then when we come to university, we would miss our school and have the thought university is not that fun compared to school. And so, we want to finish studying in university as quick as possible and go for job. Once we at job, we would miss university's life. This will never stop even when we got married things will be much complicated. Need to manage the bills, maintenance, wife, children, house and job itself. Belum masalah2 lain lagi. As we think our life is a mess now, it would be much more messier later on. So, just enjoy what you are doing right now.